choices, choices

I've been coming to realize that my life has turned out the way it has because of the choices I made. Pretty much everything in life is the way it is because of the choices we make. But at the same time, I believe in God's sovereignty and His complete control of my life, and also predestination. I guess this is one of those curious paradoxes, like how Jesus is 100% man and 100% God. I know that God is in complete control and knows everything, yet I know how important making decisions is in life.

Anyways, I don't regret anything I've done because there is no benefit in doing that, but I know I made decisions in my life that were not God glorifying or right. But, there's another thing I've learned relating to that. From all those past mistakes, or wrong decisions, instead of living with regret, I have learned from them and grown. Although I still do many things wrong, every time I do I just accept it and learn from it, hopefully learning to do things right the next time. In the past, I used to love doing things right naturally. I almost became prideful because of my natural ability sometimes. Ok I probably was prideful. However, nowadays I almost enjoy making mistakes, because I learn so much more and grow from them. As God continues to work in me and grow me, I will continue to fail and continue to grow. Hopefully I will become a more mature, Godly decision make but I know that it will come with time.